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This isn’t just a blog.
This is a space I’ve created to further my development as a human being, an organized room of free flowing thought.
Or perhaps it’s just a website. But that really doesn’t matter. My name is Alex Wildman, and I’m a writer without an identity. I cook at a restaurant for a living and I’m fuckin’ over it.
This is my escape. I am free now.
I AM WHAT I AM.
These words are birthed from the anger I feel with myself when I look back on how I’ve spent my life these last few years. While I haven’t any legitimate regrets, I do wish I had applied myself more to propel myself forward. I feel like I’ve lost important progress, but truthfully this is not about locking in on the past; it’s really the opposite.
Today is July 26th, 2022, I’m 24 years old and I cook on a line in a trendy brunch restaurant; the money is good, yes, but I want out. And I don’t just mean by getting another day job, I want to be a writer. I want to design my escape and build a new way of life for myself.
I’m fucking ready. I’ve been in love with words since I first learned how to use one, and this is who I am. And it’s who I want to be, too. I will master this craft, and it’s going to start with staying true to my word. If I say I’m going to do something, it is my upmost mission to do whatever that thing is. Today I said I was going to write something and that I was gonna go to the gym.
I suppose I’ll go and do that.